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| Ice designs |
I am fascinated by the intricate designs formed by nature. I wish I understood it more. As I looked at this this morning I wanted to remember it. I wanted to study it, but knew as the window warmed the art would fade away.
Monday, December 29, 2014
Icy mornings...
The last few days of the year. The temperature is dropping. It's feeling more like winter. I was cold on my morning run. The windows of the Jeep were cold and covered in nature's art.
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Happy Christmas Virginia!
I was remembering Christmas Eve at your house. The tree, the decorations, the huge feast and opening presents. How I miss that celebration and you. Mostly you!
I heard someone lost a loved one a few days ago and I started to tear up thinking of the pain of losing someone this time of year. It is still painful every year not having you here, shopping with you, watching the kids with Santa. You were what I loved about this holiday. And I miss that today.
I was having a dream this morning. I haven't dreamed of you in a while, but lately you have been all around. I woke up in your condo and it was Christmas. I walked down the hallway and it was just like it always was, right down to that wood laminated print of Renoir; I think it's Renoir, you always had hanging in your hall. the Dining room table was coverd in decorations and holly. And you were sitting in front of the tree. I said "Virginia, you're here?" You said "of course I am." It seemed so real. Then I woke up listening to the rain and reality slipped back in. I realized how much I miss you. Even more so this time of year.
There are so many days I wish I could call you and tell you something. My life has changed so much since you left. Some days I want to call you and cry on your shoulder and some days I want to tell you how wonderful life is and how happy I am. That I have some really wonderful people in my life right now. How big Bean is. And how crazy you would be about Sebastian and Willow. And I look at Jack and wish he could know you. I want to tell you that I found a family that I am totally in love with and enjoy every moment with, that I wish you could know.
I miss you. And I love you. You were the best part of my life when you were here. I think of you everyday, even though it's been five years.
I wish I could say Happy Christmas, and that I love you. But instead I will enjoy this day knowing it was your favorite day of the year.
So Happy Christmas dear sister. Thank you for being in my life and teaching me the little pieces of life that I carry with me so often. I know you are resting in peace. I love you Big Sis!
Deb
I heard someone lost a loved one a few days ago and I started to tear up thinking of the pain of losing someone this time of year. It is still painful every year not having you here, shopping with you, watching the kids with Santa. You were what I loved about this holiday. And I miss that today.
I was having a dream this morning. I haven't dreamed of you in a while, but lately you have been all around. I woke up in your condo and it was Christmas. I walked down the hallway and it was just like it always was, right down to that wood laminated print of Renoir; I think it's Renoir, you always had hanging in your hall. the Dining room table was coverd in decorations and holly. And you were sitting in front of the tree. I said "Virginia, you're here?" You said "of course I am." It seemed so real. Then I woke up listening to the rain and reality slipped back in. I realized how much I miss you. Even more so this time of year.
There are so many days I wish I could call you and tell you something. My life has changed so much since you left. Some days I want to call you and cry on your shoulder and some days I want to tell you how wonderful life is and how happy I am. That I have some really wonderful people in my life right now. How big Bean is. And how crazy you would be about Sebastian and Willow. And I look at Jack and wish he could know you. I want to tell you that I found a family that I am totally in love with and enjoy every moment with, that I wish you could know.
I miss you. And I love you. You were the best part of my life when you were here. I think of you everyday, even though it's been five years.
I wish I could say Happy Christmas, and that I love you. But instead I will enjoy this day knowing it was your favorite day of the year.
So Happy Christmas dear sister. Thank you for being in my life and teaching me the little pieces of life that I carry with me so often. I know you are resting in peace. I love you Big Sis!
Deb
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